city girl

Made it up to the city twice in one weekend: once for my awesome brother-in-law's birthday, and once to catch up with law school friends. Good time both evenings, and Henry even did well being left home alone for longer than usual last night and playing with a much larger dog tonight. Busy but fun weekend.

less guilt

Since adopting Henry at a shelter over a year ago, I've checked the shelter website almost every week, mostly to see if the runner-up dog (the dog that I almost picked instead of Henry) was still there. He was there every week, his picture looking at me as if to say, "I would have liked to leave the shelter, too." I always felt a little bit guilty, but couldn't stop checking. But this week, Austin's photo is no longer there! I'm hoping this means that someone couldn't resist his charm, and he's off to a brand-new life that's even better than the one he would have had with me.

kindness reminder

Ran into a coworker today who is one of the nicest people I've ever met (he once tracked down the guy who had stolen his cell phone and instead of calling the cops on him, tried to befriend him and set him on a better path). I feel like I'm doing pretty well when I'm hoping for the best in people but preparing for the worst, but he reminds me that there are people who hope for the best and then try to make it happen.

unexpectedly delicious

A slice of bread toasted with cheddar, a couple slices of leftover roast pork from lunch, and some tomato chutney from Paris. Thought it would be decent, but it was delicious.

howling lessons

Henry trying to howl is so funny that it motivated me to upload my first YouTube video ever.

butter salt artichoke

Yum.

new addiction

Picked up a Korean card game on our trip (the friend who was getting married was from a long-standing cards night from my New York days), and have spent many hours since then playing. I miss a good card game.

what a trip

Caught up with a friend in Seattle, went to a wedding in Korea, wandered around Seoul with friends, ate everything from red bean shaved ice to tiny spicy crabs to real Korean barbeque, and even crossed into the North Korean side of the neutral room in Panmunjom. Much more awesome than I expected, and the most "foreign" feeling foreign country I've visited in a while.

countdown

It's Friday AND I'm getting ready for vacation! Super busy week with lots of stress, but it's going to be worth it.

On my way out of the office, a coworker I don't know well stopped me with a question. I was momentarily concerned that it was some kind of legal emergency, but she wanted to know my skincare regimen because she thinks I have good skin. Unexpected compliment beats a Friday afternoon emergency by a long shot!

winning

Got a few nights of having the bed to myself and keeping my own hours, then Boyfriend came back, and I had the best sleep I've had in weeks.

lazy or not

I was a total bum yesterday, sleeping in and then alternating between napping and reading in bed until 4. It was amazing.

Today was the opposite, and it was also amazing. Did laundry and dishes, made brownies to welcome a new coworker tomorrow, took care of Henry's teeth and nails, started a little bit of packing for Korea, went to the office, unpacked and set up Henry's new dog gate, plowed through a fair chunk of work and personal email, worked on two drafts and presos, made a silly frame for a ridiculous certificate from the Bar, and took Henry on a long walk.

cheese plus bread

The simple deliciousness of cheddar cheese on a slice of bread, toasted, can withstand decades of palate changes.

best case scenario

Work picnic with my former team: I got to catch up with everyone without the stress of dealing with any legal issues. I miss them, so it was good to see everyone, get some sun, eat some fresh tacos and ice cream... Happy Friday!

new new new

New pedicure (I can wear sandals without shame), and new work computer (it's so much smaller that my computer bag feels empty).

separate agendas

Henry sometimes has his own agenda, which is often more entertaining than the one we had planned. Tonight was a good case in point.

Humans: Let's sit and watch TV.
Henry: I'm going to madly lick your feet.

Humans: Let's get ready for bed.
Henry: Chase me! Look at my fox squeaky toy! Mine! Mine!

bird

Went to see Andrew Bird with Boyfriend and two friends over the weekend. It was a beautiful night at an outdoor venue, and we had a really sweet parking spot that got us out and home way faster than expected.

hbd

Happy birthday to me! Took the day off, slept in, bought a few things at Nordstrom, got a surprise flower delivery from Boyfriend, took a nap, and had chocolate chip pancakes and a Pimm's cup for dinner. Real dinner coming up later this week.

go shorty

Taking tomorrow off for my birthday! No plans, just a random Tuesday with my work email turned off, maybe a pedicure if I feel motivated...

free and clear

Several years into my allergy shots, and it still continues to amaze me when I'm able to breathe easily through both nostrils at the same time. It took decades for me to find out that people live like this.

saved for later

In case I ever need a laugh, I should think about the time Boyfriend had a mouth suck in his ear, or the time a bird pooped all over the inside of his car, even though the window was only cracked open.

five stars

Based on all of the desperate sniffing and whining and the frantic high-fiving and rolling over, I'm guessing that the new brand of dog biscuits is amazing.

mystery blooms

In the middle of a drought, with no sprinklers and 90 degree days, these leafless flowers have mysteriously burst into bloom in our scraggly yard.

sunday night

Another week coming up fast, mitigated by silly YouTube videos, a crazy bedtime romp with a hyper dog, and the news that we've booked first class tickets to Japan for cherry blossom season next year.

utilization of space

Heat wave + no air conditioning = actually putting the (cooler) basement living room to use.

happiness

Happiness is a smiling dog who has no idea how ridiculous he looks when he's smiling.

seating

Moving desks again to a window seat in a smaller cube adjacent to Henry's favorite playmate. Also getting a new chair to go with my new motorized adjustable desk.

refreshing

Just found out that I'm overdue for a new computer under our corporate device refresh policy. The new computer will be less than half the weight of the current one. Technology is amazing. Also, I love our walk-in tech support and ergo support.

the other morning

The other morning, I woke up about two hours before I was supposed to get up, fell back asleep, had a long dream, then woke up convinced that I would have to get up. When I checked the clock, only 20 minutes had passed. This happened a few times in a row, so it almost felt like I'd slept several more hours.

early bird

Unfortunately, I had to get up early this morning for a 7 a.m. call, but on the plus side, there was almost no traffic as I drove in, and breakfast was in full swing, so I grabbed a hot bowl of Cream of Wheat with blueberries, butter, and brown sugar, and a blueberry-fresh mint smoothie (I always forget that mint makes everything more delicious.)

admission against interest

When Boyfriend was out of the house this weekend, I may have foregone my usual literary pursuits in favor of guilty binging on chick flicks. Canned warm fuzzies are predictable but still warm and fuzzy.

done

Finally finished a letdown of a book that I picked up a couple weeks ago, and I'm excited to move on to a better one.

Also, after a catastrophic canine overeating event, Henry is back on his normal eating and pooping schedule. Whew.

tomato season

Two windfall heirloom tomatoes from a coworker's garden + ingredients scavenged from our fridge and pantry = two rather delicious dinners. Tomato bruschetta (with bagel slices instead of baguette), and tomatoes and pluots with mint and feta. Simple, quick, and delicious.

where i belong

First day in weeks that I could sleep in and stay in bed until an absurd hour. It's noon and I'm still in bed, just on principle. I even ran some errands using Google Shopping Express, getting more vacuum bags, replacement light bulbs, and other things that are essential but not worth getting up for.

what's for dinner

Didn't feel like making dinner or picking it up from a cafe at work. Remembered that my mom sent me home with several containers of home cooking yesterday.

right now

I'll get back to all the hanging out, eating, and wandering around I did on the trip in another post, but right now, the important thing is that after over eighteen hours of travel, plus a pit stop at my parents' for dinner (and to pick up the most excited dog ever), I am home, the laundry is running, my work bag is packed for tomorrow, I'm flopped on my own bed, and the rest of the unpacking and resettling can wait till later.

On a related note, I've finally decided what I want to be when I grow up: a very happy dog. I don't think there could be anything better.

pimm's

Is there anything as refreshing as a Pimm's cup on a summer day in London?

food with friends

Got to catch up with some friends over dinner the first night I got in. This is a bowl of liquefied parmesan ravioli with smoked lard. Add some good friends, and you can't go wrong.

business trip

I'm both glad I never had to do any business travel in the first eleven years of my career and glad that, now I've started, it's somewhere awesome. London, it's been a while, and I hear rumors of Marrakech next year...

forget me not

Every year, I kind of forget about apricots until apricot season rolls around and they show up in the fruit baskets at work, and then I remember how delicious they are.

note to self

New pedicure looks so much better than old pedicure.

korea it is

We'd been planning a dive trip in August, but an old friend is getting married in Korea around then, so... We're going to Korea!

giddy

Nothing makes me feel quite so giddy and hysterical as when Henry decides that my feet and toes need a thorough cleaning, and that he's the one to do it.

canine hygiene

Full toothbrushing, tartar scraping, nail clipping and grinding, and ear cleaning feels so productive.

morning meetings

I'm not a morning person, but morning meetings are much easier if they're over the phone, so that I can dial in from home, wear pajamas, and have a sleepy face, and the only thing I need to work on is my voice.

stock up

I have this little clutch from Target that I once got for like $15, and it just fits a phone, lip gloss, money, and cards. Every time I use it, I get compliments. Every. Single. Time. Who knew such a random thing would be the best thing I ever bought, if we're going based on compliments alone? But they didn't sell them for a few years after that. I saw a different color in the store today, then looked online, and they had five versions! I bought a bunch, so that I have extras for myself and to give as gifts in a pinch.

slog

Successfully forced myself to do a bunch of unappealing things this week: online traffic school (my first ticket), bank, pharmacy, fingerprinting (for a background check), and tons of awful paperwork (the joys of being a lawyer practicing in a different state than where I was admitted). Such a relief.

roll over

Henry learned how to roll over in two days. One of us must be really good at dog training.

eating the dogfood

Testing search features by trying to get our phones to come up with inappropriate responses to imprecise queries. Jolly good fun.

laugh until crying

http://i.imgur.com/6RpTZgI.gif

You. Will. Eat. This. Chip. If. It's. The. Last. Thing. I. Do.

vegan

I love meat and junk food so much that it's a pleasant surprise when I come across a healthy vegan dish that tastes just as good. Making vegan chili using the recipe from the cafe at work, hope it turns out like theirs.

new management

Had my first 1:1 with my new manager today, and things are looking really promising. High probability of interesting work, with a lovely dose of breathing room first.

seven in nine

Finished the whole Harry Potter series in nine days. Lots of fun to read it all at once, and not bad time-wise, considering that it included a four day work week.

dreaming again

It seems that with the decrease in stress, my weird dreams and odd sleep talking have returned, much to our amusement. Combat ice dancing, anyone?

woof

Sleep barking dog.

no brass rings

I grew up in a tiger parent household, always trying to get the best grades, win all the competitions, get into the best schools, all to set myself up for the best life. Once I left home for college, however, I started having doubts about what "the best life" really meant. My classmates all wanted to get consulting or investment banking jobs, but the jobs sounded awful to me. Without much sense of what it was I really wanted to do, I went to law school, and continued to avoid the competition for the best grade, the most exclusive clerkship, the job at the most hardcore firm. I ended up at a firm after graduation, but quickly realized that it just wasn't right for me, and that the brass ring that everyone chased after at the firm -- partnership -- was just like the brass rings people had chased in college and law school. It was something that people wanted because they were supposed to want it, and I just didn't. I left to go to Switzerland, where I worked for an NGO no one had ever heard of, spending 40 hours a week working on something I thought mattered and made a difference in people's lives. It was great. After doing that for a few years, I moved back to the States, taking another non-standard job that was very exciting for me (but still different from what my classmates were doing). I was very happy, I worked on a lot of different things, and after a few years, I eagerly transitioned over to supporting our research group, where all of the ideas are weird and crazy, and some of them are potentially brilliant.

I was extremely happy, and I proudly told myself that this was the result of making conscious decisions to ignore the brass rings that everyone else wanted, and just do things that I wanted to do. I loved it.

Over two years passed, and I was drowning. Boyfriend and I both worked in the same group and it got so busy that we rarely made it home before dark, and struggled to keep our vacation days from maxing out. I had vicious headaches and constant heartburn. I started dreaming about work. My personality started changing, and I started disliking myself. But I had the coolest job! I knew it, having done it for two years, and everyone else always told me it was the coolest job. If you have the coolest job, all other jobs are less cool, and you don't leave the coolest job for something less cool, even if you're waking up in the middle of the night, not sure if it was the nightmare or the heartburn that woke you up.

And I finally realized that even though I was doing something off the beaten path, something that none of my classmates (with whom I refused to compete) were doing, and even though I started doing it because I loved it, I had somehow turned my job into some kind of brass ring, and despite all of my conscious efforts to avoid chasing brass rings, I was holding one and refusing to let it go, even though it was making me do all the things I had always scornfully said I wouldn't do: giving up my personal life for work, letting my work change my personality, making me cry in frustration at my desk after everyone had left or in the bathroom if people were still around.

When I finally admitted that to myself and reminded myself that I don't do brass rings, I screwed up my courage and changed to something closer to where my heart is: international work and non-profits, with the added bonus of having a personal life outside of work. It was an incredibly hard decision to make (this particular brass ring was much harder to turn my back on than the others in the past, and most of my coworkers seem surprised by the change), but I'm already starting to see improvements. I get home earlier. I have vacations planned. I'm nicer to myself and to others.

So this was a big lesson for me. I don't do brass rings, they are really bad for me, and I've always known that. What I didn't know until now is that not all brass rings are readily apparent, and that makes them hard to identify and avoid. Once you have a brass ring, it is really hard to give it up, but for me, if I'm not loving it, giving it up is the right thing to do.

pottering along

Two days in, 3.3 books down. Work will slow me down this week, but maybe I can get through the whole series in nine days? It's good to have fun goals.

wwii in color

The History Channel aired a 10-part documentary about WWII with lots of astonishing original footage that was shot in color. I told TiVo to record it on a whim, although I usually prefer to read about the war than watch documentaries (which are so often quite dry and suck all the humanity out of it), but this series is totally engrossing.

what to do

Long weekend, and managed to get a bunch of things done during the week, including lots of booking details for the upcoming trip. What to do now? Start reading Harry Potter from the very beginning.

7/8

As of tomorrow, I'll have taken seven out of the past eight Fridays off work. I could get used to this, but I'm going to cut myself off in June before the charm turns into an addiction. It has been an amazing sanity booster and a good lesson on unplugging and realizing that work is important, but boundaries are important, too.

the long goodbye

I sent my goodbye email to one of my teams yesterday. It was bittersweet, because I've worked so closely with them and really got to know some of them well. It's a little hard to let go, even as I breathe a huge sigh of relief over this first step towards my current future of choice.

today i learned

My dog apparently had never seen a balloon before today, and I guess if you've never seen one before, it could be a terrifying surprise?

yawn

Here's to taking Friday off, turning off work email, staying home, reading on the couch, then taking a three hour nap with the dog.

contrast

Cold feet (mine), warm thighs (his). Bliss (mine), torment (his).

google shopping express

Free same day delivery means that I can have all the maple bacon chips I want, whenever I want, without leaving the house. Nom.

pop

When you pop a zit that didn't seem ready, and it delivers beyond expectations.

business or pleasure

Both! Going to London in June for work, then spending a long weekend there catching up with my all-time favorite travel buddy. Can't wait.

oh deer

Deer hang out at our house frequently (it was the first thing that charmed me when we came to see it, and they regularly graze in our yard or block our driveway), but I still get excited every time I see them.

tis the season

Artichokes were 99¢ each at the store the other day.

end of tunnel

Things might start getting better in a little less than two weeks. In order to keep hanging in there as long as possible and use up some vacation days, I've been taking sanity days, and there really is something amazing about random three day weekends with no email, no goals, and no activities.

overdue

Got my first real haircut since June! I usually manage to get in every 4-5 months, which is already pushing it, but 10 was way too long.

chef

I believe I have figured out how to make the perfect bacon mac and grilled cheese sandwich. It is probably as unhealthy as it sounds, but that's half of the appeal.

rediscovered

Surprise taste of my childhood! My manager is from Philly, and brought these to a meeting today. I haven't had them in years, and they are still totally yummy.

taxes

Paying them really doesn't bother me, and getting them done is always satisfying, so it's a net positive for me, despite the financial impact.

import

Friend in Switzerland sent me two more bars of surprise chocolate. They always seem to arrive when I need them most.

it gets better

Made it home before 9 almost every night this week! And it's going to get better pretty soon, I think.

wild and crazy

I did two social things on weeknights last week: trivia night and a birthday dinner with a coworker. I can't remember the last time I did that, and it felt kind of crazy.

small world

Went to birthday drinks for Boyfriend's friend yesterday, and ran into a college acquaintance I haven't seen in fourteen years, bringing back fun memories of South America.

framed

Finally borrowed a truck a brought back two framed pieces from the shop (and some outdoor furniture, too).

gimme a break

Sometimes a breakdown can lead to a breakthrough. I might have a good option that didn't seem possible before.

productive

Ordered furniture (after five months of putting it off, and even negotiated a discount), dropped Henry off for a bath, bought some dog toys and a couple things at REI, dropped by the library to renew my card and make a donation, picked up some stuff at Safeway (where one of the florists gave me a rose just to be nice), got a facial, bought a ton of frozen dumplings, picked up Henry, and got home in time to go to dinner with friends, followed by some YouTube video swapping.

important research

Took the day off from work, stayed home, didn't do anything special. Except for researching break dancing and beatboxing competitions. And then Boyfriend came home and we went out for soup dumplings.

meet the parents

Sometimes in my weekly calls to my parents, I get little hints into their lives outside of being parents. This week, for example, I found out about some of my dad's political career maneuvers, all hidden behind his hardworking Asian exterior.

forage

Some rice and quinoa, leftover asparagus, scraps of my mom's roast pork, and eggs laid by a coworker's chickens, all thrown together in one pot = enough fried rice for three meals.

oldest friend

Quick phone call yesterday with my oldest friend. We live very different lives now, but have so much old history together that it's still so good to catch up and hear her voice and remember everything from our third grade play to senior prom.

cavalry

New hires gradually coming up to speed, outside counsel coming on board, could there be a dim light at the end of this long tunnel?

international travel plans

Might get to visit a couple international offices to do some fun training stuff, which is a good thing, because my attempts to plan travel for personal purposes are not progressing so well.

new tricks

New things that I'm pretty sure my dog has down pat: up, off

He's also pretty good with: poop (in retrospect, I wish I had picked a command that wasn't so clear in its meaning, as I now have to march around saying "Poop! Poop!"

And his earliest commands are pretty well established now: sit, down, shake, high five, come, and potty

friday friday friday

FRIDAY!

summer is coming

Daylight Saving Time in a few days...

quick visit

College friends dropped by for dinner last night. We've known each other almost nineteen years! Several good things established: I love watching dog people play with my dog; fancy chocolate mochi are delicious; at least one pair of my friends is as committed as I am to life sans enfants.

the cat's away

Most of the product team was on a ski trip yesterday and today. Almost no meetings, quality time with my inbox, and an afternoon with coworkers, getting pedicures and drinks. Also, two days in a row of getting home at a normal time!

housekeeping

Finally got the bedroom shutters installed, and took a couple pieces in for framing. Once we order some beds, this might start looking like a place where people actually live.

special delivery

My mom dropped by on Friday with flowers and food to try to help with the headaches. Headache still persists, but at least I've been eating real meals.

seamstress

Successfully altered Henry's new fleece jacket to fit his weirdly proportioned body.

happy puppy

Henry played with another office dog for an hour this morning, was happy and playful for the rest of the day, and is now content and sleepy.

rereading

When everything else is stressful, I can at least ensure that my reading life is comforting by rereading old favorites.

crazy idea

I've been in a bit of a frantic rut lately (if that makes sense), and two days ago, I had a random, crazy idea. Some of my best decisions in the past (getting a dog, moving to Switzerland) started off as random, crazy ideas, so I'll see if this one leads to good things, as well.

team building

Helped plan a team event the other week. My two presos went well, but more importantly, the activity I picked was pretty awesome. Nothing quite like getting locked in a room with a bunch of weird puzzles to solve.

cheese

After much scrambling and weather, we managed to get the family to my house yesterday for a photo session. My mom was so happy she almost cried. The brownie points were probably worth the money and hassle.

good idea

I was wondering what I'd eat for dinner tonight after feeling terrible for days (I hate persistent headaches), and a coworker who lives in the neighborhood emailed to say she can come by later, as her daughter is selling Girl Scout cookies. Sounds about right.