i scream

After a years-long relationship with Cherry Garcia, I'm revisiting an old flame, Haagen Dazs strawberry ice cream, and remembering why I loved it in the first place.

wat

When your big boss and your boss both think you are smarter and more capable than you do, and want you to try scary, new things, and you realize that almost every good decision you've made started out as a scary, new thing, you've got a lot to think about.

greatest hits

When you wear one of your favorite old t-shirts and remember why it's a favorite.

sixth visit

Sixth time in prison, and this time, I brought my manager and a teammate. It's been almost a year since the last time, and it's been too long! Saw some of my old guys, met some new ones, got lots of stickers and high fives, a rose, a handmade bracelet, and all the feelz.

noods

Spent a week in Singapore earlier this month, mostly working in the hotel room, but we got a lot of good meals in, ranging from amazing handmade noodles from vendors to to Michelin star restaurants, and it was good to get lots of work done (even though it was supposed to be vacation) and eat lots of great food. Especially noodles.

to dogs

We said goodbye to Boyfriend's dog yesterday, and it brought back all the feelings from Fiver dying almost six years. Mercifully, Jersey had a peaceful end, but even then, the loss reminds me of how lucky we are to have dogs. We don't deserve them.

missed him

My work wife (who doesn't work with me anymore, and whom I text every day and see a couple times a month) came into work today for lunch and to hang out, and I just couldn't stop smiling, because we just laugh at all the same things. I miss him in the office, but it was good to see him there and remember our work vibe.

they're back

Years-long prank surfaced after a long period of dormancy and totally made my day. Love my friends.

six days

In six days, I'll be hanging out with a whole lot of my favorite people, some of whom I haven't seen in years 🥰

effortless

Remembering our dives in Fiji last fall... I've felt that my time underwater has been easy and effortless for some time, but it was only on this trip, some 300+ dives in, that the time above water, getting geared up or down, that the rest of it has felt just as easy and effortless.

good boy

Fiver made an appearance in my dreams last night, for the first time in a long time. He was sweet and happy and it was good to see him again.

just desserts

When you identified some shady behavior and flagged it to your former employer, and then find out the shady individual got fired. Stay Googley, Googlers.

three years later

Reservation tonight for what was our favorite place in Tokyo last time, and I'm all anticipation to see if it lives up to the memory.

best week

Two amazing things happened at work this week. One is a blast from the past, and one is a reward for the future. I'm so damn lucky.

young people

Cambodian mentee stayed with us for a few days, and two girls who currently sing in my college choir stayed for the long weekend. Went to a concert with another choir friend, and got pulled up on stage to sing the signature song of the a cappella group and the Radcliffe alma mater and fight song. The nostalgia for college days was strong this month.

scent hound

Last week, I suddenly had the illusion of a scent that I hadn't smelled in years. It smelled exactly like Fiver after he'd had a bath. I breathed it deeply and felt all the memories come back just like that. I haven't smelled him since he died, and I don't know why I thought I smelled it last week, but it was wonderful.

roll tide

Huge sigh of relief as Alabama elects a Democratic senator instead of the pedophile the Republicans ran. After a couple Dem governors were voted in last month, I'm starting to feel a little bit of hope after the debacle of last year.

coup de grace

When you're the black sheep of the family, but everyone believes you when you tell them about a terrible thing that happened in the past, and they band together to try to do the right thing, and you almost start to understand why other people trust their families.

bombs away

Drew a line in the sand with cousins. Waited. And watched as a large number stepped over to my side.

accidental investment

When you realize that the house you bought on a whim has increased $1M in value in four years.