Tuesday, December 12, 2017


Reinforcements have arrived, and my new teammate is great. She knows all kinds of things I don't, and is fresh and ready to work. It's nice to have a peer, and I'm so glad she's joined.

scent hound

Last week, I suddenly had the illusion of a scent that I hadn't smelled in years. It smelled exactly like Fiver after he'd had a bath. I breathed it deeply and felt all the memories come back just like that. I haven't smelled him since he died, and I don't know why I thought I smelled it last week, but it was wonderful.

do gooders

Team volunteer event today, and fourteen of us sorted and packed over 5,000 pounds of food!

roll tide

Huge sigh of relief as Alabama elects a Democratic senator instead of the pedophile the Republicans ran. After a couple Dem governors were voted in last month, I'm starting to feel a little bit of hope after the debacle of last year.

Sunday, December 3, 2017

a good book

Finally, after months of book drought, I've hit a streak of a few good books, including the great one I'm reading right now. Quiet house, sunny afternoon, couch, dog, blanket, book. I could do this every day.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

star wars marathon

Surprised a coworker with a Star Wars marathon today, and we had a great time eating, drinking, watching movies, and hanging out.

Friday, November 24, 2017


I haven't had coffee in four days, and I'm still alive.

feast finished

Forty hours of family, friends, and food complete. This year, we scaled it back, so we "only" had veggies, hummus, cheese, bread, smoked salmon, pork belly buns, prime rib, asparagus with eggs, Brussels sprouts with bacon, mashed potatoes, bourbon sweet potato souffle, and pumpkin pie with ice cream. Plus our traditional fondue the night before and crepes the morning after. Mischief managed.


Sleep barking never fails to be adorable.

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

at least

When I'm sick and working from home, at least Henry gets to sunbathe.

Sunday, November 19, 2017

preparations underway

Pork belly is in the sous vide bath for the night, so Thanksgiving must be coming soon.

Monday, November 13, 2017

surprisingly okay

Going back on meds and not actually that upset about it this time around. It's been a rough few months, so it makes sense.

at least

At least the uncontrolled communications within a nosy family mean I was able to avoid an awkward conversation with my parents and find out their thoughts without taking to them...

coup de grace

When you're the black sheep of the family, but everyone believes you when you tell them about a terrible thing that happened in the past, and they band together to try to do the right thing, and you almost start to understand why other people trust their families.

Wednesday, November 8, 2017


When you finally go through the papers on your desk for the first time in months, get rid of most of them, and you can see your desk again.


When you open up those little two packs of Starburst, and three out of four are pink.

Sunday, November 5, 2017

good talk

Got off the phone after catching up with friends for the first time in a while, and realized we were on the phone for over four hours! Time flies with old friends.

Friday, November 3, 2017


Well, that's the third time in 1.5 years that I've had to call AAA, this time for a flat tire. I guess it makes the membership fees for the previous seven uneventful years worthwhile? Also, no idea how they got to me in fifteen minutes and changed the tire in five.

Saturday, October 28, 2017

single weekend

Sleeping in while taking up the whole bed. Pho and games with friends. Re-dyeing my hair. Pedicure. Dog cuddles. Massage. Books. Those are my crazy plans for my anniversary weekend while Boyfriend is out of town.

me too

When your friends and family start telling you the things they have been most ashamed of, and you feel honored to receive such trust and faith.

all mine

When your boyfriend goes to visit his family and you get the whole bed to yourself, and sleep for nine hours for the first time in god knows how long.

Thursday, October 26, 2017

wanna cookie?

When your coworker brings in three bags of dog treats for your dog, because her dog changed diets.


When you come into work and a coworker left this for you.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

prison break

Had my third prison volunteering event today, and realized that a lot of the things that we've been teaching the guys in the program and vulnerability, shame, and trust are things I've been working on because of the program. I posted my #metoo posts partly because I found myself telling things to strangers in prison that I was afraid to tell my own friends and family. I owe a lot to these men, who happen to be in prison, and who have taught me so much.

Also, I won a t-shirt in a raffle there! I've never won a raffle in my whole life. So I get to keep my family AND I get a shirt. It was a good day.

bombs away

Drew a line in the sand with cousins. Waited. And watched as a large number stepped over to my side.

Sunday, October 22, 2017

been a minute

Surprising and emotional week after a YOLO post about sexual assault and harassment. Support and love from unexpected quarters. Then, fondue.

More generally, feeling pretty valued at work, which helps get me through the roughness of a bumpy launch.

Completely unrelated, quickly tracked down a friend's "the one that got away," and they've gotten back in touch, picked up where they left off, and I hope to be a flower girl, at last.

Saturday, September 30, 2017

end of the week

Finally got another massage from my favorite massage therapist last night, and I'm still happily sore. Slept in this morning, and puttering around at home for the day.

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

eight years in

After over eight years of allergy shots, probably over 150 shots, my allergist told me she thinks we can try going off the shots and see if I can be done for good!

Saturday, September 16, 2017

slow loris

Surprise visitors at work yesterday included a lemur, a kinkajou, an alligator, a great horned owl, an eagle, and this slow loris. Also had lots of human visitors, including three former officemates and one other coworker from my Google days (one was Boyfriend), one bearing a haul of gummies from Switzerland. Stayed until 9:30 for social reasons rather than work reasons for the first time in months. Much needed after a roller coaster week.

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

accidental investment

When you realize that the house you bought on a whim has increased $1M in value in four years.

just in time

Biggest thunderstorm I've ever seen in California (and during the dry season!) broke the heat just as the air conditioner repair guy said we can't use the air conditioning until he gets a replacement part in.

Dat lightning, tho'.

Saturday, September 9, 2017

good times

Happy times with old friends and new, more free time than I've had in a year, more time with the boyfriend than I've had this year, some quality reading time, extra sleep, pretty dives with great coral, fish I'd never seen before, and a sea snake, which I haven't seen since 2003.

Back to reality and I was actually ready for it this time. I've got my dog back. My co-workers missed me, my CEO gave me a raise and told me that I've been working hard and doing a good job, and there is so much going on to jump right back in and keep having fun. Also, I had a one day work week, and tomorrow, I landed a sweet reservation for dinner, just in time to wear one last rented dress before I send them back in.

Friday, September 1, 2017

it's been ages

Since I changed jobs, we haven't traveled as much as we used to, and the trips we have taken have been hectic ones. This is the first time in over a year that I've had this much time to just sit around, read, nap, and enjoy the sun. I forgot what this feels like!

it's been ages

Since I changed jobs, we haven't traveled as much as we used to, and the trips we have taken have been hectic ones. This is the first time in over a year that I've had this much time to just sit around, read, nap, and enjoy the sun. I forgot what this feels like!

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

dive nerd

Went on two dives yesterday and was inordinately pleased that a friends and his friend separately expressed admiration for my air consumption and buoyancy control. Only a diving nerd would care.

Saturday, August 26, 2017


LA and back again yesterday for our final launch event, and phones are shipping, just in time for me to leave on vacation tomorrow.

Monday, August 21, 2017


First vacation this year starts in six days!! First stamp in the new passport coming soon...

simple things

After over a week of a broken water heater and showering at work, we have a water heater again!

and we're off

Press embargo lifted, first reviews are out, launch events in progress, and things are going surprisingly all right.

duty calls

Jury duty for the second time in my adult life. Dismissed after six hours of waiting. Inbox surprisingly well behaved.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

home stretch

Last spring towards launch, and after a week of non-stop 14-16 hour days, it's good to see the amount of work I got done, to get emails and texts from the president and my boss saying they know how hard I'm working, and then to sleep in a bit today, get some sun, and go college shopping with my mentee. It's a good recharge before digging back in.

Sunday, August 6, 2017

perfect gift

My mentee brought us gifts from Cambodia, and one of them was the traditional scarf they wear there that we wanted to get and didn't have time. I've regretted not getting one for the last year and a half, but now I'm glad I didn't, since it's much more meaningful to have one from her.

she's here

Over a year after we started working together, our mentee arrived from Cambodia!! She's smart, sweet, kind, and worth all the time we put in together.

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

make it rain

My birthday is coming up this weekend, and I'm long past the age where birthdays mean presents, but I'm moved to tears by the friends who are donating to my favorite non-profits. Love.

my jam

Went by myself to a community sing of the Brahms Requiem last night, as my other friends couldn't make it. It was me and 100 old people I don't know. We didn't sound great, but I loved singing it again, just the same.

Sunday, July 30, 2017


Finally got to see it a couple weeks ago with my sister and brother in law, and it was fascinating and lingers in the mind. I'm not a history junkie, nor am I a big hip hop fan, but it was pretty brilliant and both of our time and of his time.

freedom and hope

Last weekend, I spent sixteen hours on buses to put in two long days at a supermax prison, meeting some of the most ordinary and extraordinary people, and realizing how extraordinary an experience it is to meet people who are so different from me but also so much the same. My heart and mind are still racing.

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

bored boss

When the CEO drops by because he's bored and wants you to entertain him, asks your opinion on how different members of the team are doing (after asking you yesterday to help get the team gelled and on track), and then he tells you that you're underpaid and he's going to fix it, it's a pretty awesome five minute interlude in the middle of an otherwise lightspeed day.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

some weeks

Even though it was a three day week, it was crushingly productive, with some work on the weekends on either end. Oddly satisfying. Plus a little mental prank thrown in for good measure.

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

happy puppy

My dog was so happy to see me when I got in to the office this morning! It's good to be missed.

back again

Long weekend in Portland with good friends, good food, good weather, lots of walking, and lots of cards. Less work than expected, and now it's back to the startup grind.

Thursday, June 29, 2017


Went to see Wonder Woman with some female co-workers yesterday, and I have to admit that it was surprisingly touching to see badass women fighting and saving men, instead of the other way around.

good girl

COO told me he knows I pull late hours and that I'm an indispensable member of the team who helps set the tone for everyone else. It's nice to get good feedback.